the low down

so ive basically been feeling like i dont fit in anywhere. i moved out of my moms bc it wasnt working btw us and bc she couldnt really afford me and here im starting to feel like im putting nanny out. i know she has to spend more on me when im here with food and stuff and i feel bad about that. and then next year... how is my apt. gonna be paid for? i mean good grief no one can afford me and i have a job but i cant support myself. i cant get myself through school and pay for an apartment. bah this is hard. at least i will be working next year. gosh, i hope everything works out. im tired of always feeling like im in the way, even if im not.

annoyance. annoyance. annoyance.

i should really start working out too. life is just feeling so blah these days. im always in someones way. its bullshit.

maybe its just one of those days. i need something more constructive to do with my life.