an attempt to describle the indescribable

though my meager attempts fall short of his beautiful streams of fluidity and poise transcended into something concrete, i won't try to catch up to him, as i simply won't. though this is not something to worry about. i marvel at the way he illuminates an idea with only the sheer light of a few characters on a page. i stand in admiration and disbelief that i am able to be an inspiration for some of his writings that i tuck away deep in my heart, hoping that perhaps one day he will have a glimpse of the talent he posesses.

[here i would usually dive into a pool of self-pity but i will restrain myself and instead move on to a new topic entirely]

two month anniversary. it's not a long time at all, but those two months have been wonderful ones. i've learned the heart of a boy who's spirit,once crushed, is now slowly learning to mend itself with love. the pain that was once all-consuming now commences its long journey into the null and void, replaced with feelings of belonging and a sense of meaning. i want to hold him until he falls asleep in my arms with a smile spread across those lips i long to press between mine. i want to explain to him the way i lose myself when he wraps those beautiful arms that fear judgement around me and bring me in close to him, close to his heart. i want to tell him of how my heart forgets to beat and lungs forget to breath when he stares deep into my eyes and tells me he loves me, because i know he means it with every bit of that tattered heart he bears within him. but to do this would be an attempt to describe the indescribable. so for now, my sweet, this is all i can give to you. i hope you can accept it as a morsel of how i actually feel about everything about you.

so i will continue my day lying around for now with the soothing sounds of radiohead lulling me into a sleepy and ignorantly content state, something that may just be good for me at the moment.